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Post by wannabefree24 on Jun 27, 2013 8:01:12 GMT -5
So, I'm 27 and have been dealing with porn and masturbation for some time, probably since I was 12 or 13. It started with those softcore movies from time to time on TV but the problem really intensified with the internet. When I was 19, I decided to give myself to the Lord but still struggled from time to time with it. After some crushing personal events, I fell away from the church for over a year, and it was during this time, I really got caught up in a world of fornication, masturbation and pornography. Even after I got back in church and was active in music ministry, I was still in bondage to this. For about seven years, I've been in this cycle of "fall down, ask God for forgiveness, fall down..." It wasn't until maybe 2012 that I realized that in order to beat this addiction, it was going to take a change of heart that could only be done by God Himself. Recently, I went on a porn binge that left me feeling so shameful, but I've noticed after my latest binge, it takes more perverse and graphic porn to satisfy me. This morning, I was reading in my Bible some of the damaging effects of sexual sin and sin in general and it has opened my eyes. What I really want is for God to truly give me a new heart, one that values sexual purity, one that does not desire to fulfill the lustful desires and look upon women with a lustful eye. This is my first time ever sharing my struggle with anyone. I just ask for your prayers and support in this fight of my life.
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