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Post by sinner2saint on May 28, 2013 1:02:50 GMT -5
I used to struggle with porn for years of my life and haven't watched it for about a year now. It led me to some dark places spiritually and mental. It led me to the point where I would be searching for women strictly to have sex and hookup with on the website myyearbook and Even Craigslist. I looked at women as objects for my personal pleasure and had no regard for actually finding love. It led me to a very confused brain and I never had the bible or God in my life and my friends and people i hangout with weren't much of an encouragement either. To this day it still creeps into my conscience and haunts me of one of the women I hooked up with whom gave me oral sex immediately upon entering my house after I picked her up the worst part about my testimony is the female was a transsexual.. This is probably the most shameful and embarrassing story any of u will read on here but I had to let the world know even tho I have told God and my Lord and savior Jesus Christ to forgive me over and over. I haven't been able to muster up the strength to tell anyone in person so bear with me people because this is my first time ever letting it out. Through all my struggles with the seven deadly sins I have found Jesus can cleanse all of them if you only put all your faith in him. I smoked cigarettes and weed daily for about 7 years straight and quit about a year ago through all this madness and it was only through my strength in Jesus that helped me overcome my wicked past I tried so many other outlets but nothing was working so I encourage you all to seek and praise God because only he can forgive and cleanse you. Please feel free to reply and ask any questions. That was a lot off my chest. Amen brothers
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Post by bubbaray on May 28, 2013 2:04:38 GMT -5
God bless you brother for having the courage to speak on your testimony. God's word says that we overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. You speaking out has not only helped you but it will encourage and help others who will read it.
The fact that you are reminded that receiving oral sex from a transsexual continuously creeps in your mind just reminds us that the enemy doesn't take a day off. He desires to slip into your mind, steal your joy, kill your peace, and destroy your deliverance. He wants to make you feel guilty enough that you will return to acts of sexual impurity.
If GOD forgave you...which He has because of your repentant state......make sure you forgive yourself.
I don't know you but I'm proud of you and praise GOD for you stepping forward and sharing. We are here for you in times of need. Remember that temptation will never leave but you are releasing the desire and that makes the difference.
Love you with the love of Christ, Bubba!
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Post by sinner2saint on May 29, 2013 0:55:40 GMT -5
Hey bubbaray thanks for the support man. it always helps to hear from a righteous brethren in Christ. God bless you and hope The Lord directs your future to its fullest
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Post by bubbaray on May 29, 2013 1:08:18 GMT -5
sinner2saintNot a problem man. Looking forward to even more testimonies that you will share with us.
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